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Just because you’re hurt doesn’t mean you’re broken.

I’m not perfect. I don’t have a flat stomach. I don’t have hair. I’m not rich. I’m not very feminine. I don’t paint my nails all the time.. I don’t have cute clothes, I’m not smart and have a 4.0. I’m not good at sports or artistic. So don’t be shocked if I’m not the person you want me to be.

Why do I feel guilty? I’m not cheating. We haven’t been together since last June. Why do I feel the way I do. Am I just pathetic and have no life. Why is it so hard for me to get over it. I keep Telling my self your worthless but everytime you open those soft lips of yours you just pull me right back in.

You don’t love her. You never did love her. Maybe she was just good for your ego. You just didn’t want to he alone, or maybe being with her makes you feel better about your miserable life. But you don’t love her. You don’t destroy people you love.

Am I a bad person? Honestly what defines being a “bad person?” Is it smoking or drinking? Is it being a slut or maybe gossiping? Maybe even the smallest things like cursing. I always question myself. Whether it not I’m a bad person. I gossip. Does that make me a bad person? I curse? I gossip constantly. I can’t help it, it’s just happens. Gossiping always gets me into more and more drama that I never want to be involved in. But in a way I kinda like knowing the drama because its something else to focus on than my mediocre life. I like the ooos and ahhs of the situations.. It’s honestly pathetic. But am I a bad person?

Why do you fall for her everytime… She’s dumb and I’m right here.

I miss my life. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss God. I miss who I used to be… How do I go back? I don’t have enough strength left in me. Why? I’m just searching for me.

Trying to he the biggest person is probably the hardest thing